Saturday, May 31, 2008
looking at the photos,
looking at the flashbacks of that period of time
just like a film.
observing it closely and noticing something.
deleting it bit by bit.
its just like standing somewhere else noone is at.
having mixed feelings about it.
sitting there all alone.
walking out of the room,
while everyone was chatting happily away.
walked towards the piano
touched the keys, sat down and
watched the kids walking around happily.
just looked at the floor,
returned back to the room sitting at the corner.
looking down at the table and turned the head
while tears suddenly came.
heard a call to turn
whipped it off while getting up.
why can't life be as simple as the black and white keys on the piano?
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/31/2008 12:50:00 AM.
Friday, May 30, 2008
yo! Happy holidays!!!!!!!!!!! yesterday was darning fun =] level outing rocked! haha! deborah jy's dog is so cute! haha! =D finger exercises is good for the health! haha! still can't forget the girl who didn't allow me into the toliet cubicle saying that there was something inside, hehe =] kinda scary but she kinda looked serious so yup!
Langarts fest was darning fun too! getting to run around the whole school and stuff. met cousin there, darning funny =] the kids were so cute, haha! when you say hi to some of them, they would just look at you and stare.... hehe =] stop and stare.
as time goes by,
all the arenas becomes larger.
and as it does,
another gets added on.
i put down my shield and sword
and surrender.
the day is coming.
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/30/2008 11:54:00 PM.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Played runescape yesterday and suddenly an old online friend said hi and wouldn’t that lead you to think how even online friends can still remember the past despite it being just a game? Thinking about the times spent in the past with a few online buddies and right now we hardly see each other anymore. Its just like what happening in reality, even things happen online, in a game. Friends, its so hard to see if they are truly friends or just backstabbers.
Why slash someone in the back to hide your face.
Why not stand right infront of her and give her a glimpse of your true self before she falls.
Why not remove the mask and reveal it at the end of the day?
And that very day, will never come. Why?
Cause you wouldn’t take it off to hide your true self.
Up till today you have not taken it off yet.
With your mask on, you are a great person in their eyes yet without it,
You are a vicious and hated person in their eyes.
Why fake it all?
Why can’t you just remove the mask?
Why keep it on when its not you?
You, the devil in disguise.
Why are you fishing for fishes. When you catch one, you just take it out of the hook and throw it back into the river. Why cause it to bleed slowly death? Think about the pain its feeling before its time reaches.
To think that that very morning that was sacrificed for it was just replied with an insult, just like the feeling of doing something for a super long time and watch it being thrown right into your face.
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/25/2008 01:56:00 AM.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
looking up into the sky, wander into the blueness and how pure it is as you watch the clouds go by.have you ever wish life could just be like a bed of roses and be as comfortable as how you are feeling while lying there as you watch time go by.everthings just going through the human mind, feelings, thoughts, memories. thinking back about how everything was back then it really is painful while you think about how each year has passed, friends leaving the school, times with good friends. nothing stays the same.
whats the point of this or that?
whats the point if you are just all an act?
whats the point if no one sees it?
whats the point of saying it when you don't mean it?
whats the point of life?
whats the point when all that surrounds are all just lies and betrayal.
i'm such a fool.
take away the pain like a bullet to your brain
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/21/2008 01:30:00 AM.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
ahoy matey!!!
yo! campfire today rocked out loud! =] haha! the songs were great, the fire was awesome plus the performance was awesomish great! haha! =]
AR!!!!
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/18/2008 03:13:00 AM.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
look down and have you ever noticed how the dew on a leaf is close to one another? but then when you shake it, it just falls apart from one another and some even falling to te ground. have you ever noticed the leaves on the tree all being so close to one another but soon one leaf falls and it gets seperated? have you ever noticed the dry leaves beneath the green leaves making it difficult to notice? exactly.
everythings just coming out how no one expected it to be.
either things happened too fast, too shocking or just too painful or hurtful.
why can't everything just stay the same
its impossible but why can't we try?
maybe its too much to ask. true.
don't you feel pain when you fall?
don't you feel hurt or troubled when a big blow occurs to you?
don't you feel at all?
everythings just turning out how no one expected it to be.
theres no point predicting what going to happen any longer.
its just going to turn out like this.
everythings just getting so irritating and fustrating.
hitomi wo tojireba itsumo
yomigaeru kimi to no seasons
sono nukumori to
itami wa kienai mama
yasashisa ga tarinakatta ne
bukiyou na boku ni nokotta
saigo ni mita omoide wa
ano fuyu no namida
so I cannot forget 4 seasons we've lived in
kimi ga inai shiki wo wataru yo
so I cannot forget 4 seasons we've lived in
ano sora mo kanashimi mo daite
-winds.
(translated)
but i thought as long as we are, together the authum nights would be the same.
whenever i close my eyes i recall the seasons i was with you
the warmth and the pain is still there
the kindness was not enough, was it?
The visible memory in the end that left incompetent me
... was those winter tears
so i cannot forget the four seasons we lived in
i will go across the four seasons alone without you
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/14/2008 11:09:00 PM.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Happy Mothers Day!!! =]good morning! plus! happy belated happy mothers day! hehe! just finished typing the mmp section report plus art! haha! =] so cool! kinda feel very energetic right now, haha! art work is kinda really bad right now, just coloured the face blue and its kinda scary. imagine staring at a blue face staring back at you right now at this time, hehe =]
ok, off the packing before the lizards come to attack! haha! =] good night!
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/12/2008 03:34:00 AM.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
listenning to a song, brings back many memories. sad ones, happy ones. right now you think about them and wonder why and what caused it.
everything is changing,why must it so? why this extreme? infront you put on smiles, yet behind you speak words unimagable, everything never thinking would come out. i never thought that so much trust is lost despite everything felt and secrets shared. i really wonder if its really true if you say those words anymore.
i really detest you, i really do.
everytime i see you,
think about your actions.
clench my fists and just store it all in.
why can't anyone see it?
the thunder and lightening inside.
feeling the anger slowly building up, crushing the piece of paper in your hands, tearing them up bit by bit. slowly lift your fingers and see pieces of papers, all filled with different memories and the different incidents that caused the anger.
the feeling of anger rising to your head
the feeling of tears forming
the feeling of not wanting to talk
the feeling of not being able to do anything
really kills.
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/11/2008 12:06:00 AM.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
why? why must everything change. used to think it was unecessary but right now, thinking about the vow we made many years ago, i don't know.
Sometimes,
the unexpected becomes the expected and
the expected becomes the expected.
things just change unexpectedly despite how you feel.
life is an unexpected rail in a film.
its just goes on and on and soon it stops.
everything is just coming unexpectedly.
life is just like a story,
where it has its twists at the end or in between.
giving the reader anxiety to read on
and start letting the reader's imagination run wild.
thinking about the possibilities of what the causes might be.
life is just like a mystery.
the human mind and the people
messing with your thoughts,
giving you fustration, anger, confusion.
all the feelings you are feeling right now.
life is just like a never ending path or trail
but when the end reaches,
you close your eyes and jump into the hole.
watching as you whole life flashes by and
boom.
thinking back wondering what the future might be like if you did even the slightest action or movement or even say a single word.
thank you.
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/10/2008 11:59:00 PM.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
*beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep* CLEAR! *beep beeep beepp* HAHA!
ITS LIVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hello! haha! =] SFA tomorrow!!! o.O ah... all the best everyone! =]
shadows have no form, thus not having any weaknesses. its a really deeep phrase. got it from a very honorable and pretty fun game. samurais, fighting for the honor of their counrty....
SAMURAI WARRIORS 2!!!!! HAHA! =] the producer is the same as dynasty warriors =] haha!
but if you seriously think about the phrase its really meaningful.
shadows covering the sunlight,
the shelters above causing them to cast it.
each time,
giving the shadows a cause.
throw rock and watch if it crosses,
the line.
a point of no return.
is it true that the shadows will forever overpower the light?
♥For me, it’s only you , 5/01/2008 05:32:00 PM.
